花瓣，
一片片，
滑过了空气的外壳，
缓缓地，
落在大道上。
徘徊的思绪，
不禁，
停住了片刻，欣赏，
那一秒的花落。
梦想，
一针一线，血泪交织，
蓦然回想那当初，
竟，
嘲笑年少的天真。
现实，
并非成功的欢呼，而是
失败的哀嚎，
所堆积。
望向，
那流水潺潺，
不知觉，
雨点停驻于脸庞。
原来，
秋天了；
原来，
下雨了，
春天还会远吗？
彩虹还会远吗？
无语。低头。默想。
10 April 2009
08 April 2009
Hope-Disappointment-Hope
It's funny that sometimes, when we hope that something will happen as we wished, it will just give u something u do not want; while when you seem to lose hope on certain things, u will be given something u have thrown it out of your mind.
As I hope that Sime Darby might be the torch which illuminates my way to overseas, this morning it cast me a long, dark shadow of disappointment. After being rejected by Khazanah, well, Sime Darby plays the same game.
I have been wondering, is the selection purely random? Or are there too many good applicants?
Or am I just not good enough?
Dear PHANG,
APPLICATION FOR THE POSITION OF Undergraduate Local and Overseas (Malaysian Applicant) ON Mar 18 2009
Thank you for your interest in the Yayasan Sime Darby Undergraduate Scholarship 2009.
Although your extra-curricular activities and qualifications are remarkable, the competition has been very keen and we regret to inform you that you have not been shortlisted for the scholarship interview.
Once again, we thank you for your time and effort and we wish you every
success in your future academic endeavours.
Yours faithfully,
Yayasan Sime Darby
A wonderfully-written email which just spells out the phrase, "sorry pal, u r just a thrash to us. Hope we don't meet again in near future."
This time, it is different from the previous post for Khazanah, in terms of the mood. No more resentment. No more anger. Just a tinge of disappointment, and self-doubt.
The dream to study overseas has once shone through the results and offers, and turned bleak with the scholarship applications. Maybe it's not time yet for me to weave the dream.
Realising the road towards the peak of dream is not a stroll down the garden, I know, life has provided me a road fulls of boulders and barriers, to test my determination and perseverance to climb the mountain of dream.
There is no easy way to success. Failure which can't beat u down, can only disappear as a gentle breeze, and make u stronger.
Today, I pen this down. I will remember the moment I got rejected. I know one day, I shall be able to stand proudly, cry victoriously, and smile thankfully.
As I hope that Sime Darby might be the torch which illuminates my way to overseas, this morning it cast me a long, dark shadow of disappointment. After being rejected by Khazanah, well, Sime Darby plays the same game.
I have been wondering, is the selection purely random? Or are there too many good applicants?
Or am I just not good enough?
Dear PHANG,
APPLICATION FOR THE POSITION OF Undergraduate Local and Overseas (Malaysian Applicant) ON Mar 18 2009
Thank you for your interest in the Yayasan Sime Darby Undergraduate Scholarship 2009.
Although your extra-curricular activities and qualifications are remarkable, the competition has been very keen and we regret to inform you that you have not been shortlisted for the scholarship interview.
Once again, we thank you for your time and effort and we wish you every
success in your future academic endeavours.
Yours faithfully,
Yayasan Sime Darby
A wonderfully-written email which just spells out the phrase, "sorry pal, u r just a thrash to us. Hope we don't meet again in near future."
This time, it is different from the previous post for Khazanah, in terms of the mood. No more resentment. No more anger. Just a tinge of disappointment, and self-doubt.
The dream to study overseas has once shone through the results and offers, and turned bleak with the scholarship applications. Maybe it's not time yet for me to weave the dream.
Realising the road towards the peak of dream is not a stroll down the garden, I know, life has provided me a road fulls of boulders and barriers, to test my determination and perseverance to climb the mountain of dream.
There is no easy way to success. Failure which can't beat u down, can only disappear as a gentle breeze, and make u stronger.
Today, I pen this down. I will remember the moment I got rejected. I know one day, I shall be able to stand proudly, cry victoriously, and smile thankfully.
07 April 2009
Share-A-Thing
Question:
What is the human being's funniest characteristic?
Ans:
Our contradictoriness. We are in such a hurry to grow up, and then we long for our lost childhood. We make ourselves ill earning money, and then spend all our money on getting well again. We think so much about the future that we neglect the present, and thus experience neither the present nor the future. We live as if we were never going to die, and die as if we had never lived.
[pg188, Like the Flowing River, Paulo Coelho]
What is the human being's funniest characteristic?
Ans:
Our contradictoriness. We are in such a hurry to grow up, and then we long for our lost childhood. We make ourselves ill earning money, and then spend all our money on getting well again. We think so much about the future that we neglect the present, and thus experience neither the present nor the future. We live as if we were never going to die, and die as if we had never lived.
[pg188, Like the Flowing River, Paulo Coelho]
01 April 2009
April Fool. A great twist.
Rejected by Khazanah. No reasons given. Was told that the committee board is extremely selective. So far, only two Chinese are selected for the first-round interview.
And mind you, both of them are the top scorers (5As) in STPM 2008. They scored perfect flats in all papers. And one guy was even the top scorer for MUET.
So, perhaps I am just not good enough. Ha-ha.
And, just on the day which every university has to reply to UCAS, a long-awaited reply finally arrived. Thanks. =)
So, a great twist. Life always has a great turn at the corner, and brings an unexpected surprise.
And mind you, both of them are the top scorers (5As) in STPM 2008. They scored perfect flats in all papers. And one guy was even the top scorer for MUET.
So, perhaps I am just not good enough. Ha-ha.
And, just on the day which every university has to reply to UCAS, a long-awaited reply finally arrived. Thanks. =)
So, a great twist. Life always has a great turn at the corner, and brings an unexpected surprise.
27 March 2009
Deja vu
That day,
He leaped jubilantly,
He cried in triumph,
He knew,
His dream was about to set on a new path,
A new journey begins.
Today,
He hides himself at the corner of the wall,
He sobs while avoiding the eyes,
He knows,
His dream is shattered,
A new hope is crushed.
"Rejected, unsuccessful". The two little words, yet having the mighty power, to stab right at the centre of his heart.
"Believe in yourself, believe in fate". A very good friend told him such. The confidence level was at 100%, now rapidly falls to a pathetic 20%. He still has faith in those words, but starts to self-doubt.
A true man never gives up. A true man will cry behind the crowd. A true man conquers his tears with his fists.
But, why his path of life is destined to be so much rocky and muddy? Why the weather of fate is fated to be so much treacherous and stormy? He questions, wonders and swallows. He understands that maybe 4As is just an obligation for himself and the competitive world. It's nothing more than an economy class ticket.
The two brutal words, keep reappearing in his days. And, he is having a recurrent dream on the same incidents two years ago.
JPA, TNB, ASEAN. The three musketeers, mischievously promise him a nice future, but in the end, he realised that he was in a dreamy wonderland. Reality hit him hard. And, he rises up with dignity this time, but almost falls off with despair and disappointment. 4As is not even qualified for an interview, let alone being granted a scholarship. Is 4As actually a curse disguised in blessing?
He feels, it's like u are taking a very nice drawing of yours to the teacher, the teacher slaps your face, and spits on your drawing.
Is he on the verge of giving up? Maybe yes. Maybe not. May the three warriors keep him positive. Determination, Perseverance, and Hope.
Pray hard for him. I guess, he will be grateful and thankful.
He leaped jubilantly,
He cried in triumph,
He knew,
His dream was about to set on a new path,
A new journey begins.
Today,
He hides himself at the corner of the wall,
He sobs while avoiding the eyes,
He knows,
His dream is shattered,
A new hope is crushed.
"Rejected, unsuccessful". The two little words, yet having the mighty power, to stab right at the centre of his heart.
"Believe in yourself, believe in fate". A very good friend told him such. The confidence level was at 100%, now rapidly falls to a pathetic 20%. He still has faith in those words, but starts to self-doubt.
A true man never gives up. A true man will cry behind the crowd. A true man conquers his tears with his fists.
But, why his path of life is destined to be so much rocky and muddy? Why the weather of fate is fated to be so much treacherous and stormy? He questions, wonders and swallows. He understands that maybe 4As is just an obligation for himself and the competitive world. It's nothing more than an economy class ticket.
The two brutal words, keep reappearing in his days. And, he is having a recurrent dream on the same incidents two years ago.
JPA, TNB, ASEAN. The three musketeers, mischievously promise him a nice future, but in the end, he realised that he was in a dreamy wonderland. Reality hit him hard. And, he rises up with dignity this time, but almost falls off with despair and disappointment. 4As is not even qualified for an interview, let alone being granted a scholarship. Is 4As actually a curse disguised in blessing?
He feels, it's like u are taking a very nice drawing of yours to the teacher, the teacher slaps your face, and spits on your drawing.
Is he on the verge of giving up? Maybe yes. Maybe not. May the three warriors keep him positive. Determination, Perseverance, and Hope.
Pray hard for him. I guess, he will be grateful and thankful.
12 March 2009
D-Day
13th March 2009. A black Friday. An unlucky day in old-time belief. The notorious Friday 13th.
Tomorrow is the Judgment Day. A day to gauge the performance of 18 months.
Well, I only hope that the luck will be with me.
Pray hard. =)
Tomorrow is the Judgment Day. A day to gauge the performance of 18 months.
Well, I only hope that the luck will be with me.
Pray hard. =)
07 March 2009
Dream Vs Reality
Recently, I came to a funny conclusion about life. (Maybe due to excess boredom, the neurone cells are enjoying thoroughly...XD XD..)
Life is about how far u can make ur dreams come true, and how far u can turn reality into your dreams..
I have a friend, who wants to become a movie director. The Dark Knight is his favourite; I have a friend who is interested in opening a concept cafe, but he is not going to tell me his exact plan; I have a friend who goes for bakery course right after SPM; I have a friend who studies tourism and hospitality; and of course, I have a friend who is working right now, striving hard to provide himself a decent life.
I believe each of us has surely thought before that "what if i could.. ". And, I always have the strong belief that, if one person goes according what his mind figured and what his heart whispered, he will succeed in life, be it a small or a big dream.
And, right now I am having 3 dreams. Just match the number given by the genie in Aladdin. =).Strike a flying-colour result. Get a hopeful offer. Snap a pocketful of money.
Will the magic lamp work this time? We shall see it then...:p
Life is about how far u can make ur dreams come true, and how far u can turn reality into your dreams..
I have a friend, who wants to become a movie director. The Dark Knight is his favourite; I have a friend who is interested in opening a concept cafe, but he is not going to tell me his exact plan; I have a friend who goes for bakery course right after SPM; I have a friend who studies tourism and hospitality; and of course, I have a friend who is working right now, striving hard to provide himself a decent life.
I believe each of us has surely thought before that "what if i could.. ". And, I always have the strong belief that, if one person goes according what his mind figured and what his heart whispered, he will succeed in life, be it a small or a big dream.
And, right now I am having 3 dreams. Just match the number given by the genie in Aladdin. =).Strike a flying-colour result. Get a hopeful offer. Snap a pocketful of money.
Will the magic lamp work this time? We shall see it then...:p
28 February 2009
记中学生涯之文学篇
零六·5B
铃声响起。入梦时分。
陌生的际遇，皆是相识的开端。挥之不去的回忆，如丝如缕，像青烟，盘绕，旋状似的，随即，散了。飘落的回忆，零零散散，没有一个是有着完美的胴体。犹如被肢解的灵魂，而没有落脚的归属。然而，清晰的情感，让此回忆拼成了一幅永铭心中的画面，勾勒出内心最深处的思念。
四十多只眼睛，疲累地努力打开快要关上闸门的眼皮，望着在这班上唯一拥有发言权的主体。暗地里，则各自以各种手段、招式，掩饰自己，继续发言。有者聚精会神与周公下棋，有者则翻了个筋斗，与悟空遨游天下去了。双瞳的直望，思绪的斜逝，留下空洞的躯壳，盲目地寻找失去的灵魂。俨如古代君王的主体，看在眼里，痛在心里，似乎明白其权威在这现代民主小社会里，起不了什么显著的作用。摇头直叹的君王，暗自偷笑的文武百官，构成了一幕幕回味无穷的片景。
余音，绕着梁子，见证了无数的青春韵味，在正日当空，散发出年少的气色。无知的大展歌喉，愚昧地展现自我。就好像可嘉的勇气，碰上抱歉的嗓音，幽默地在班级里回荡，许久。烦闷的荒岛中，四海逼近的压力，有了音乐的陪伴，才不至于跳海自尽吧。依然搞笑，依然范特西。习惯性地遭人谩骂，却只当着耳边拂过的风，依旧我行我素。实在让人啼笑皆非。曲调的音符，歌声的韵律，随着时间的流逝，像一泓秋水，流入尘封的美好记忆里头。
每回考试降临，都是风起云涌，云起龙骧的历史片段重演之时。从战国的乱世之争，楚汉双雄的争霸天下，到三国鼎立的时代。局势已定。虽说是三国鼎立，却始终让人觉得宛如秦朝独揽春秋霸业的年代。时光的倒流，终究是错觉的片面说辞，实际上是三国鼎立的幻想占据了各自的脑袋，对秦始王的霸业感到厌倦了。毕竟，在胜者为王，败者为寇的会考里，让较为弱小的诸侯们，甚至是春秋五霸也心服口服。无能为力的诸侯，也唯有从反抗到服从，恭敬地以秦为王。
飘逝的岁月，犹如滚滚长江向东流。一去不返。
独一的五乙，无二的同学，永恒地标示着我门这一班的存在。彼此，共患难，共进退，不再需要推敲词囊中的美丽词藻来堆砌。日久了，人心也见。走过的痕迹，谈笑的风声，一一皆被编入了一本名为记忆的册子里。哪怕多少载的春过夏至，秋散冬降，回忆犹新，教室依旧，同学如故。
红阳冉冉升起，又是另一个明天。记忆各散东西。风，徐徐吹拂，嘴角边，咸甜参半。一个梦的结束，却也是43个梦的开始。这里的一切，皆沉淀成记忆的瓮，盛满了情感的鳞片。
铃声响起。梦醒时分。
一切归零。原点。
这篇是为了纪念曾经一起走过中四、中五的同学。刊登于2008年6月17日，星洲日报副刊《后浪》版。
铃声响起。入梦时分。
陌生的际遇，皆是相识的开端。挥之不去的回忆，如丝如缕，像青烟，盘绕，旋状似的，随即，散了。飘落的回忆，零零散散，没有一个是有着完美的胴体。犹如被肢解的灵魂，而没有落脚的归属。然而，清晰的情感，让此回忆拼成了一幅永铭心中的画面，勾勒出内心最深处的思念。
四十多只眼睛，疲累地努力打开快要关上闸门的眼皮，望着在这班上唯一拥有发言权的主体。暗地里，则各自以各种手段、招式，掩饰自己，继续发言。有者聚精会神与周公下棋，有者则翻了个筋斗，与悟空遨游天下去了。双瞳的直望，思绪的斜逝，留下空洞的躯壳，盲目地寻找失去的灵魂。俨如古代君王的主体，看在眼里，痛在心里，似乎明白其权威在这现代民主小社会里，起不了什么显著的作用。摇头直叹的君王，暗自偷笑的文武百官，构成了一幕幕回味无穷的片景。
余音，绕着梁子，见证了无数的青春韵味，在正日当空，散发出年少的气色。无知的大展歌喉，愚昧地展现自我。就好像可嘉的勇气，碰上抱歉的嗓音，幽默地在班级里回荡，许久。烦闷的荒岛中，四海逼近的压力，有了音乐的陪伴，才不至于跳海自尽吧。依然搞笑，依然范特西。习惯性地遭人谩骂，却只当着耳边拂过的风，依旧我行我素。实在让人啼笑皆非。曲调的音符，歌声的韵律，随着时间的流逝，像一泓秋水，流入尘封的美好记忆里头。
每回考试降临，都是风起云涌，云起龙骧的历史片段重演之时。从战国的乱世之争，楚汉双雄的争霸天下，到三国鼎立的时代。局势已定。虽说是三国鼎立，却始终让人觉得宛如秦朝独揽春秋霸业的年代。时光的倒流，终究是错觉的片面说辞，实际上是三国鼎立的幻想占据了各自的脑袋，对秦始王的霸业感到厌倦了。毕竟，在胜者为王，败者为寇的会考里，让较为弱小的诸侯们，甚至是春秋五霸也心服口服。无能为力的诸侯，也唯有从反抗到服从，恭敬地以秦为王。
飘逝的岁月，犹如滚滚长江向东流。一去不返。
独一的五乙，无二的同学，永恒地标示着我门这一班的存在。彼此，共患难，共进退，不再需要推敲词囊中的美丽词藻来堆砌。日久了，人心也见。走过的痕迹，谈笑的风声，一一皆被编入了一本名为记忆的册子里。哪怕多少载的春过夏至，秋散冬降，回忆犹新，教室依旧，同学如故。
红阳冉冉升起，又是另一个明天。记忆各散东西。风，徐徐吹拂，嘴角边，咸甜参半。一个梦的结束，却也是43个梦的开始。这里的一切，皆沉淀成记忆的瓮，盛满了情感的鳞片。
铃声响起。梦醒时分。
一切归零。原点。
这篇是为了纪念曾经一起走过中四、中五的同学。刊登于2008年6月17日，星洲日报副刊《后浪》版。
18 February 2009
Rule of 72
Today, I read up some economics, poetry and political science books. After a few paragraphs, I can hardly swallow the contents. Liberal arts subjects are far more tougher than I have ever thought.
I came across this knowledge when I study inflation. In fact, it involves many statistical and probability methods to calculate, evaluate and predict the rate of inflation.( OMG...havent reach that far..XD)
Rule of 72: A rule which is used to divide 72 by the percentage of the current inflation, to find out the duration (year) for a material to take to double it's current price.
eg: Percentage of inflation: 10%
If the price of a box of pencils is RM100 at 1990, the time it uses to reach RM200 is :
72/10=7.2 approx. 7 years
Therefore, at 1997, the price for a box of pencils is RM200.
I came across this knowledge when I study inflation. In fact, it involves many statistical and probability methods to calculate, evaluate and predict the rate of inflation.( OMG...havent reach that far..XD)
Rule of 72: A rule which is used to divide 72 by the percentage of the current inflation, to find out the duration (year) for a material to take to double it's current price.
eg: Percentage of inflation: 10%
If the price of a box of pencils is RM100 at 1990, the time it uses to reach RM200 is :
72/10=7.2 approx. 7 years
Therefore, at 1997, the price for a box of pencils is RM200.
17 February 2009
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