29 September 2009

最后的篇章

Disclaimer: The post below is very emo-ish. Read at your own risk.

在大马的日子,也不长了。

所以,才决定利用华语来刻下当中的心情感受。一时之间,我语塞了,竟不知道要以怎样的文字,来表达那心中的冲击、澎湃。

我重新审视自己的方向,看着两年前的自己,然后现在的自己,再展望四年后的自己,也得到不少启发。很多时候,你要的,你不会的得到;反观,你没想过要的,却会拿到。 这里,我只想说的是,原来一切随缘,并不是悲观的说法,而是看尽了无常的人生盛宴,而成熟地珍惜目前。

一直以来,论语说,父母在,不远游,游必有方。那现在,我远游的目标是什么?少许朦胧,少许不确定。

在林凡的《一个人生活》里有一句,“冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我”。我又想,英国那里是否会冷冻到,让游子的回忆流下不舍得泪水吗?

当时间越来越少,我们就越会去争取。哪怕是一分钟的相聚,也足矣。因为,当时间流过后,我们或许会追悔着当日的遗憾。

离别在即,我开始珍惜这里的一切。 纵然大马的政经文教依然如此,但是,还有很多沉淀在心底的情感,紧紧系着我们。

我曾经为了梦想,放弃了某些东西。现在,却想要追回一个平衡点。

没有灵魂的梦,就像没有家的豪宅。-夜曦



p/s: 最近去玩回那风筝,原来,一放一收,才是生活的规则。

21 September 2009

Untitled

In one week's time, I will be saying goodbye to Malaysia.

Many friends who are going to study abroad soon, have started to blog about the memoirs, moments and anecdotes which are stored in their minds, and can still be retrieved until today.

I tried to remember, to reminisce and to recall, yet what appear, were not the significant milestones which I have achieved, but the happy and sweet moments which I have passed through without notice. I was surprised.

The first time I was detained and caned in the class by Cikgu Fong, my Primary BM teacher.

The first time We chased a classmate around the school compound, until my school uniform was torn (terkena the side of the windowpane,-.-).

The first time I was protected by a young gangster head in the school bus, and got lots of free snacks and, of course free seats as well. He even lent me some Misteri Naga comic books but I couldnt find him when I have finished reading them.

The first time I took a bus when I had diarrhoea. (Very bad experience, dun ask! )

The first time I made a phone call to a girl.

The first time We cracked jokes and spilled a mouthful of water in front of the teacher.

The first time I fought with a classmate.

The first time I was so happy being a class monitor for straight 2 years. (2005/06)

The first time We made surprises for teachers and friends.

The first time We debated with our English teacher about an issue.

The first time We wrote about our class, our teachers an kept those in a book.

The first time I saw unity in my classmates when the teachers asked about the book.

The first time I consoled a girl on a phone for about 2hours and it cost me a RM15 for the bill.

The first time I took an hour walk to search for a piece of one-year-old newspaper article at National Library.

The first time I took a dinner with a girl and walked her home and made a video for her birthday.

The first time Me and My Friends skipped the Physics class and went to play badminton.

The first time We laughed like nobody is around at the cafeteria.

The first time We cracked some unforgettable jokes in Ulu Sepri.

Too many first times to be brought with the luggage, which is why I choose to store them in the room. So that, when I come back, I will be able to take them out and have a look.

"We ought to keep our memories because we need them when we are alone, when we feel cold and when we fall."

P/s: I accidentally re-listened to this song. Nice one indeed.

20 September 2009

杂文

对着,
发光的荧幕,
听着,
打字的杂音,

独自,感受着,
单一的心情。

孤寂的夜,在雨珠的衬托下,没有更为热闹,
反之,
更为冷清,更为寒冻。

启程的心,
牵引着,
不愿走的回忆。

当初的梦想,
竟,
失去了,
那曾有的,
潇洒。

他,
仰笑,俯瞰自己,
却看见
空虚地徘徊,

虚拟
的空间里。

发着,
不知所谓,

牢骚。

12 September 2009

词两句

二十年的岁月,就像喝下去的绿茶,淡淡的一口,浓浓的思念。

望着,那草地上的一滴露珠,仿佛,一切的回忆,浓缩起来,等待着晨曦的照射,化为一丝希望,迈向西方。

08 September 2009

Finally almost there

A place I have always dreamed about. A place which I have thought that I might not be able to go, at least for now.

But, now it's happening. I am going to London, and I am finally almost there.

Things happen for a reason. And, for a person who loves scenery, I got Wilson House as my future accommodation. I can just easily overlook the spacious and picturesque Hyde Park from my room. I heard there's a sport centre nearby (wow!), as well as some Malaysian restaurants (Kebab!), and big shopping malls like Tesco and Marks and Spencer.

The drawback is, I will miss lots of fun time with friends who stay in Southwell and other Evelyn Gardens hall, as well as Southside and Beit. =(

Plus, cycling across the park amidst the morning breeze seems refreshing and awesome! =)

Just have a sneak peak on the park which I will walk through everyday. =p



Hyde Park-take 1


Hyde Park-take 2

02 September 2009

Experience

This is the place, where 18months of memories were built upon. Today, after leaving it for a few months, I revisited it and I had a lot to share with you about this place.

I was told that, I will be interviewed, simply because maybe I am talkative? This is because I somehow couldnt find any valid reasons for them to interview me, when I heard these the moment I met my interviewers. A and B

"Why you find a student who is going to UK? Why not getting another high achiever who is studying in U.C.S.I currently? "

"I actually forgot about the interview already. Too many things."

Is this the way u expect when u are told u are going to be interviewed? I don't know, at least it's not within my expectation.

Overall my interviewers are quite polite, but there's one question which I find it hard to answer. I just don't know how to answer it.

"Why you prefer Imperial to U.C.S.I?"

And, when I request a financial assistance to sponsor me to take part in a student event in Prague. I debated with the VC for about 2 hours on why should U.C.S.I sponsor.

Here are some of the words worth to be remembered:

1. International event might be a crap? We wouldnt know?

2. Why would u want to choose ICL instead of U.C.S.I? (Duh again..~~)

3. We dont want to rare u already, and give away our asset to other universities. (Why sounds so P**-ish? This answer is given when i asked why no info on UCAS or US admission is given to us.)

4. Writing to express your opinion is a type of leadership. To link with other people is another type. We only look into the latter. (Now I know when a person wana say NO to you, any kind of reasons will be given .)

5. Why you kept on picking up something good from other colleges? (Takkan, I ought to praise U.C.S.I?)

6. If the President of Student Council or the President of CCS asked, I would recommend them. But you did not hold any positions in our clubs. (Does Alvls student stand a chance to run, given that there are so many degree students? And, does that mean a President from your club is eligible to take part in the IYLC? Oh my..)

Well, I was seriously speechless when I walked out from the place. And, as I recalled the whole interview process, I felt so familiar. The way they spoke, and the reasons they put up, were just like the mentality of certain people in our country.

I heard that renovations are currently being done in this place. Even an elevator is built from ground floor of block B straight up to computer lab.

But isnt this looked like our country? We have top-class infrastructures, but human capitals managment?

Nevermind, sometimes we need to walk out of the box if the box doesnt want to move.

01 September 2009

3108 Thoughts

Heavy rain in the morning. Just woke up and felt like going back to sleep again.

Therefore, to kill boredom, I went to buy the 1Malaysia first day cover. I admit that I am not an avid stamp/ first day cover collector, but still the first day cover is quite attractive.

So this is the first day cover.


And this is the miniature sheet which costs me RM5. It's like a hologram with a 3D-effect.


Well, u see, somehow, this reminds me of the degree of patriotism issue which occurs every year without fail. There are so many ways to show it, but some just insists on waving the flag is the only method to show; while some even thinks that we should just keep quiet in order to be patriotic.

I buy 1Malaysia first day cover-wor. I support Barangan Buatan Malaysia-lar. At least I walk my talk, better than some who just leaves shoutouts as shoutouts, or keep slogans as slogans.

U see, that's the problem. Here, we need to show people our love. We can't just store it deep inside our heart.

However, we have to make sure one thing. Our love is towards our country, which doesn't switch name every 5 years.

Here I wish, Hari Merdeka, Malaysia! =)

Is that patriotic? Yea, perhaps not. Because I didnt wave my flag. =p