已经很久了，没有这样的感觉。
外面的倾盆，给予一片朦胧美。少许的雾，飘在空中，让坐在窗口边的我，看见吉隆坡午后，雨景里的另一面。
也不知道，这是不是只是我个人的心情？吃过午饭，懒洋洋的，躺在椅子上，思绪漂走。那雨水，就像童话里的魔术，撒在窗口，带走了部分的烦恼。
城市的步伐，走得有点儿太快。快到连睡觉的时间，都差点不够用。望一望办公室里的人，大家也不多说了。
语言，似乎在空气中，凝结了。抑或是，内心，不再友善了呢？
我慢慢的打字，竟然缓缓地睡下去了。曾几何时，午睡，已经变成了一个昂贵的消遣。
雨，好像停了。孙燕姿的《雨天》，也播放完毕了。
睡醒后的午后，显得特别宁静。宁静的美，实在是可遇而不可求啊！
27 July 2011
25 July 2011
Ashamed to be a Malaysian
This is probably the first time in my life, felt so shameful for being a Malaysian.
I was in the KTM this afternoon, heading towards Mid Valley to meet up with my Imperial friend. And, the KTM was as packed as usual.
After a couple of minutes, i managed to squeeze myself in. At this moment, I saw a Singaporean uncle, pressing his chest and gasping for air.
He asked weakly, "why is it that the train is so packed, yet the door is not closed yet? And why do people keep pushing in?"
When I got down at the Midvalley station, he got down as well although it's not his destination. He could hardly breathe in that environment. I brought him to a bench to sit down and rest.
He told me that he was having a minor heart attack, but nobody was paying him any attention.
I just stood there, doing nothing but just saying sorry to him.
However, he still tried to put a smile on his face, saying "thank you, young man. I can deal it myself", despite the excruciating pain he was enduring.
Sometimes, we tend to forget that people who need help the most, might not be the one who shouts the loudest.
Morals and civic consciousness, where art thou?
I was in the KTM this afternoon, heading towards Mid Valley to meet up with my Imperial friend. And, the KTM was as packed as usual.
After a couple of minutes, i managed to squeeze myself in. At this moment, I saw a Singaporean uncle, pressing his chest and gasping for air.
He asked weakly, "why is it that the train is so packed, yet the door is not closed yet? And why do people keep pushing in?"
When I got down at the Midvalley station, he got down as well although it's not his destination. He could hardly breathe in that environment. I brought him to a bench to sit down and rest.
He told me that he was having a minor heart attack, but nobody was paying him any attention.
I just stood there, doing nothing but just saying sorry to him.
However, he still tried to put a smile on his face, saying "thank you, young man. I can deal it myself", despite the excruciating pain he was enduring.
Sometimes, we tend to forget that people who need help the most, might not be the one who shouts the loudest.
Morals and civic consciousness, where art thou?
22 July 2011
一流大学，九流人格
Disclaimer：这篇文章，纯粹是为了抒发而抒发。愿大家勿轻易对号入座。如有雷同，纯属巧合。
所谓顶尖大学，就是在世界里，享有盛誉的名牌大学。大学本身，就是一个时尚品牌，在里面就读，就像是为自己的履历表，渡上了一层金片。
但是，稍微读过几年华文的，都应该听过这句话吧!
"金玉其外，败絮其中"
做了22年的人，遇过的人，不算多，可是，也绝对不少。很多时候，身上没有什么金片的，在待人处事方面，也的确比较好。简单来说，就是我们所说的，”会做人“。
有时候，也真的会感到有些失望。几乎到了夜半时分，他可以不需要理会任何的人事物，就拍拍屁股走了。如果不是看到其他的朋友感到比较无助和紧张，我才不会浪费口水，帮人求情。
说真的，我有时会想，是不是以前别人是这样对他的？所以造就了今时今日，他这样的思维。但，大家现在也没有怎样利用他啊！要解忿气，也要找对对象嘛！
或许，当他没有自己的交通工具时，才会明白到我的心情。
首先，做不到，讲话却那么响亮。话说到那么动听，到了最后，却办不到。这样的人，在某种程度上，就失去了信任。
在五花八门，人群混杂的地区里，过了午夜，就像个充满地雷的战场。飞车党，攫夺匪，妓女满街跑。在不知道酒店的所在地，我也是靠问人，在黑夜里，独自摸索了半小时多，电话也差点被抢。
不过，这也再次证明了我的看法。
”人，是个自私的动物。“ 我不会责怪他，毕竟现实是这样。但是，我会时常警惕自己：
1.唯有靠自己，才最实际。
2.别人这样对我，我大可不必要那么对回别人。怨有头，债有主。
所谓顶尖大学，就是在世界里，享有盛誉的名牌大学。大学本身，就是一个时尚品牌，在里面就读，就像是为自己的履历表，渡上了一层金片。
但是，稍微读过几年华文的，都应该听过这句话吧!
"金玉其外，败絮其中"
做了22年的人，遇过的人，不算多，可是，也绝对不少。很多时候，身上没有什么金片的，在待人处事方面，也的确比较好。简单来说，就是我们所说的，”会做人“。
有时候，也真的会感到有些失望。几乎到了夜半时分，他可以不需要理会任何的人事物，就拍拍屁股走了。如果不是看到其他的朋友感到比较无助和紧张，我才不会浪费口水，帮人求情。
说真的，我有时会想，是不是以前别人是这样对他的？所以造就了今时今日，他这样的思维。但，大家现在也没有怎样利用他啊！要解忿气，也要找对对象嘛！
或许，当他没有自己的交通工具时，才会明白到我的心情。
首先，做不到，讲话却那么响亮。话说到那么动听，到了最后，却办不到。这样的人，在某种程度上，就失去了信任。
在五花八门，人群混杂的地区里，过了午夜，就像个充满地雷的战场。飞车党，攫夺匪，妓女满街跑。在不知道酒店的所在地，我也是靠问人，在黑夜里，独自摸索了半小时多，电话也差点被抢。
不过，这也再次证明了我的看法。
”人，是个自私的动物。“ 我不会责怪他，毕竟现实是这样。但是，我会时常警惕自己：
1.唯有靠自己，才最实际。
2.别人这样对我，我大可不必要那么对回别人。怨有头，债有主。
20 July 2011
Memo of Internship 2
Feelings and inspiration are like magic, they appear spontaneously and disappear immediately. Therefore, confining them into words and characters are the best way to keep them eternal.- Peter Phang.
I am now in my 3rd week of internship. Life has not been productive, but it has been interesting.
From next week onward, my supervisor will be giving me a chance to rotate from one department to another. This will definitely be great as I will have the opportunity to put those pieces of jigsaw puzzles together and understand the general operations of Maxis in mobile and broadband networks.
And, he said to me, that engineering skill is very much sought after in today's market. don't give up your engineering background.
Thus, i am contemplating between joining the engineering force and the not-so-technical fields like consulting and banking. How's the life for these two? How's it like to deal with clients and to provide them with solutions?
While this is one of the big questions i have to answer as soon as possible, I had the chance to visit two unconventional companies -Air Asia and Royal Selangor.
"You begin with a humble start, and you will end up proud".
Entrepreneurship has always been in my mind. When you see how KS Pua starts everything from scratch, when you see how Tony and his partner, who just work in a radio station, and now making their marks in the aviation history, your heart trembles and wants to soar as well. And not forgetting the family of Royal Selangor, who has so many beautiful stories to be told to the world.
"The road in front is normally hazy and bumpy, and only when you look back to find the path you have walked on, you have the courage and confidence to move forward".
I am now in my 3rd week of internship. Life has not been productive, but it has been interesting.
From next week onward, my supervisor will be giving me a chance to rotate from one department to another. This will definitely be great as I will have the opportunity to put those pieces of jigsaw puzzles together and understand the general operations of Maxis in mobile and broadband networks.
And, he said to me, that engineering skill is very much sought after in today's market. don't give up your engineering background.
Thus, i am contemplating between joining the engineering force and the not-so-technical fields like consulting and banking. How's the life for these two? How's it like to deal with clients and to provide them with solutions?
While this is one of the big questions i have to answer as soon as possible, I had the chance to visit two unconventional companies -Air Asia and Royal Selangor.
"You begin with a humble start, and you will end up proud".
Entrepreneurship has always been in my mind. When you see how KS Pua starts everything from scratch, when you see how Tony and his partner, who just work in a radio station, and now making their marks in the aviation history, your heart trembles and wants to soar as well. And not forgetting the family of Royal Selangor, who has so many beautiful stories to be told to the world.
"The road in front is normally hazy and bumpy, and only when you look back to find the path you have walked on, you have the courage and confidence to move forward".
13 July 2011
所谓论坛
昨晚，出席了个论坛。
当中，有一个是 National Youth Council的代表。其思维，的确让我惊愕不已。有几个论证看起来是很有道理，却漏洞百出。
1.他指出，制度(system)是没有错的，错的是人。看起来，是没有错。可是，是谁制定那个制度的呢？
2.他还说，我们国家才独立了50多年，非常的年轻，与泱泱大国如美国来比较，我们简直是幼嫩。人家美国200年后才有第一个黑人总统啊！依照这样的逻辑，难道我们还多等一个世纪半，才可以改变我们的国家？现在媒体那么先进，要是有决心要改，政府早就改了。
3. 有学生提出新加坡为例子。他说，难道你以为新加坡没有不公平的政策？这点，我不否认，其帕拉图(Plato)式的精英主义(elitism)，也常为人诟病。
可是，这样，并不代表你也可以制定一些不平等的条例。人家不好，难道我们也要跟着不好吗？最重要是会懂得取长补短。
举个例子，你的家进了贼，然后你以同样的理由去当贼，进去别人的屋子。你认为，对吗？
他还给了我们很多计划，如youth parliament. 说要我们参与，"to make our voices heard"。 其实，我们都知道，"our voices are heard, but who is listening?"
Bersih 喊得那么响亮，到头来，政府也不是当他们是非法集会？
整个论坛，原本是要学生考虑回国服务，或者培养学生利用最近的政治动态，去思考未来走向。到了最后，我们却以一个很无奈的口气，总结昨晚的讨论。
“Be good in what you do best. And it's always good to have some political awareness."
讲了，等于没有讲。兜圈子兜了整晚，却还在原地踏步。这种论坛，还是早点回家睡觉更好。
当中，有一个是 National Youth Council的代表。其思维，的确让我惊愕不已。有几个论证看起来是很有道理，却漏洞百出。
1.他指出，制度(system)是没有错的，错的是人。看起来，是没有错。可是，是谁制定那个制度的呢？
2.他还说，我们国家才独立了50多年，非常的年轻，与泱泱大国如美国来比较，我们简直是幼嫩。人家美国200年后才有第一个黑人总统啊！依照这样的逻辑，难道我们还多等一个世纪半，才可以改变我们的国家？现在媒体那么先进，要是有决心要改，政府早就改了。
3. 有学生提出新加坡为例子。他说，难道你以为新加坡没有不公平的政策？这点，我不否认，其帕拉图(Plato)式的精英主义(elitism)，也常为人诟病。
可是，这样，并不代表你也可以制定一些不平等的条例。人家不好，难道我们也要跟着不好吗？最重要是会懂得取长补短。
举个例子，你的家进了贼，然后你以同样的理由去当贼，进去别人的屋子。你认为，对吗？
他还给了我们很多计划，如youth parliament. 说要我们参与，"to make our voices heard"。 其实，我们都知道，"our voices are heard, but who is listening?"
Bersih 喊得那么响亮，到头来，政府也不是当他们是非法集会？
整个论坛，原本是要学生考虑回国服务，或者培养学生利用最近的政治动态，去思考未来走向。到了最后，我们却以一个很无奈的口气，总结昨晚的讨论。
“Be good in what you do best. And it's always good to have some political awareness."
讲了，等于没有讲。兜圈子兜了整晚，却还在原地踏步。这种论坛，还是早点回家睡觉更好。
08 July 2011
真实
一直以来，我都以为，面对的，已经够真实了。那现实的，那残酷的，那无奈的，我以为，我都看过。
来到了Maxis，当上了暑假实习生。看到的，听到的，原来更为颤抖。
在你眼前，你看到，原来，在大马里，很多优秀的，有经验的科技人，都不太备受重视。很多只会放屁，含糊过日子的，却高高在上。
当初，听到时，我们都会说，“是这样的啦。这世界是这样的。”
但是，当你真真看到时，你会感到恐惧，颤抖着想，到底你要做什么？
高薪水？改变世界？科技达人？
因为，现在已经几乎到达了那三岔口。梦想，生活，金钱。
做工让人成长，我现在相信了。成长地太快，有点儿害怕。不知道会不会被“拔苗助长”了呢？
要改变世界，掌握科技，非常地关键。
我在这里，面对的都是至少有5年以上的资深工程师，还有一些甚至拥有几张专业核证。谈话时，的确会变得胆小。Imperial的名堂，顿时变得像空气中的粉末，微不可见。
我很难想象，5年后的我，会有着什么样的生活方式？
一个资历尚浅的工程师，乱乱放屁，指指点点。
还是，
一个被人看不起，却尽力去吸收和学习的工程师。
这，我在这里，都看见了。
未来，因为不可知，所以令人担忧。因为充满变数，所以不确定。
来到了Maxis，当上了暑假实习生。看到的，听到的，原来更为颤抖。
在你眼前，你看到，原来，在大马里，很多优秀的，有经验的科技人，都不太备受重视。很多只会放屁，含糊过日子的，却高高在上。
当初，听到时，我们都会说，“是这样的啦。这世界是这样的。”
但是，当你真真看到时，你会感到恐惧，颤抖着想，到底你要做什么？
高薪水？改变世界？科技达人？
因为，现在已经几乎到达了那三岔口。梦想，生活，金钱。
做工让人成长，我现在相信了。成长地太快，有点儿害怕。不知道会不会被“拔苗助长”了呢？
要改变世界，掌握科技，非常地关键。
我在这里，面对的都是至少有5年以上的资深工程师，还有一些甚至拥有几张专业核证。谈话时，的确会变得胆小。Imperial的名堂，顿时变得像空气中的粉末，微不可见。
我很难想象，5年后的我，会有着什么样的生活方式？
一个资历尚浅的工程师，乱乱放屁，指指点点。
还是，
一个被人看不起，却尽力去吸收和学习的工程师。
这，我在这里，都看见了。
未来，因为不可知，所以令人担忧。因为充满变数，所以不确定。
06 July 2011
Insights of an Intern
Flipping over the calendar, marking down the dates, and now I am on my 4th days of interning with Maxis.
The same routine goes round the days: sleep at 2am, wake up at 630am. Take a bus at 730am, and arrive at the office around 830am.
But, a glass of teh-tarik or kopi panas will clear up my dizzy mind and starts the day with 90% of the spirits and a tinge of drowsiness.
(Thanks to Imperial for the harsh training.)
These 4 days have given me some real insights about the working life in Kuala Lumpur. As I work alongside with my supervisor, I can see that employees in the technical field are generally undervalued.
The salary is low, but the food price, transportation cost are high. The money you get evaporates in no time and you question yourself: is it really worth to work in a technical field in KL?
Right now, before even starting any projects, I have to dive into reading the basics of internetworking- the knowledge of connecting internet and mobile networks. The stuff is extremely challenging and technical (the main Maxis network system in the Klang Valley). I literally never learn before all these.
But i get more and more comfortable as I spend more time in it. Again, this, I have to thank Imperial for the harsh training.
I pay 21k pounds to study 80% of the modules myself in the university, and now Maxis is paying me 1k to study real-life stuff myself. How ironic is that!
You rush to work and get back to your house at about 9pm. Talking about reading more books or living your life are plain imaginary ideas once you start working.
Besides, last weekend was the first weekend which Otak-otak starts its programmes. First time got in touch with the intensive case study workshop and it gave me some new and fresh experience, to think about my career path in the next future.
Plus, as a student in UK, meeting up with the students from the Ivies,reputable unis, Liberal Arts Colleges in the States definitely give me a very exciting interactions. The world will be so dull if everyone is just the same, right?
It's time to re-evaluate the goals in life and the direction for my next 2 years in the university.
The same routine goes round the days: sleep at 2am, wake up at 630am. Take a bus at 730am, and arrive at the office around 830am.
But, a glass of teh-tarik or kopi panas will clear up my dizzy mind and starts the day with 90% of the spirits and a tinge of drowsiness.
(Thanks to Imperial for the harsh training.)
These 4 days have given me some real insights about the working life in Kuala Lumpur. As I work alongside with my supervisor, I can see that employees in the technical field are generally undervalued.
The salary is low, but the food price, transportation cost are high. The money you get evaporates in no time and you question yourself: is it really worth to work in a technical field in KL?
Right now, before even starting any projects, I have to dive into reading the basics of internetworking- the knowledge of connecting internet and mobile networks. The stuff is extremely challenging and technical (the main Maxis network system in the Klang Valley). I literally never learn before all these.
But i get more and more comfortable as I spend more time in it. Again, this, I have to thank Imperial for the harsh training.
I pay 21k pounds to study 80% of the modules myself in the university, and now Maxis is paying me 1k to study real-life stuff myself. How ironic is that!
You rush to work and get back to your house at about 9pm. Talking about reading more books or living your life are plain imaginary ideas once you start working.
Besides, last weekend was the first weekend which Otak-otak starts its programmes. First time got in touch with the intensive case study workshop and it gave me some new and fresh experience, to think about my career path in the next future.
Plus, as a student in UK, meeting up with the students from the Ivies,reputable unis, Liberal Arts Colleges in the States definitely give me a very exciting interactions. The world will be so dull if everyone is just the same, right?
It's time to re-evaluate the goals in life and the direction for my next 2 years in the university.
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