灯｜精灵

Photo taken by SiangKee Chen.

一颗颗LED灯, 跳跃着, 就像小精灵般,
透过眼睛，偷偷进入了你的心灵，给你感动的片刻。

当萤火虫碰见香草的天空

很多时候，很多东西，都不由得我们去控制。

而，随遇而安，则是最好的。

就好比说，电脑坏了。迫不得已要去hall里面的电脑室去用，就这样，阴差阳错下，认识了一位来自美国 Indiana的3rd year Material Engineer，和 一位来自西班牙Barcelona的 4th year Chemical Engineer.

在缘分的星空下，原以为不会认识任何"鬼佬"，也在这样的机缘下，遇上。

他，告诉了我 Vanilla Twilight 和 Fireflies 这两首歌。

当中的歌词，读起来舒服，想起来幸福。

在此，摘一小段分享分享.

Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

Fireflies

You would not believe your eyes,
If ten million fireflies,
Lit up the world as I fell asleep.



香草的天空下，看着那睡着了的幸福。

寂静。寂寞的安静；心情的平静。等待。

Madonna's wisdom

I think Madonna is not just a singer. She is a philosopher too.

“To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage; because we don’t want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.”

A good quote to end a week. A good quote to begin a weekend.

Of Hurdles, Dreams, and Scribbles

First 3 papers. 3 down, 6 more to go.

The first 2 were still fine. Today is the real challenge, and I finally can see how hard a test could be.

I sighed and prayed that it will turn out well. =/

It has been a while since I last typed a post in English, for I always think that only Chinese can weave my emotion perfectly in words.

Saw a quote somewhere, "We always stare at the frame and forget about the picture."

A nice one, indeed, especially at this moment. I just know that after the finals, I am not going to stare at any frames.

I am going to
lie on the lawn and play with the kids in Hyde Park, enjoying the fun of being followed by some cute puppies, and not Rottweilers.

I am going to
kiss the rain in the midnight, while strolling along Edgware Road. 9 months are sufficient enought to make me miss this place. Some said you miss a place because you have grown dependance towards it, while I say, this place has given me many nice memories, especially Satay House and MSN.

I am going to
keep my feet away from the library and wash away the stinky silence and pressure.

I am going to
fly to the moon, and admire the clouds, knowing that 13 hours later I will reach a place, where I called home.

Daydreaming~~ *2 more weeks!* =)

考试产量

也不晓得为什么，考试时期的头脑，出乎意料，反而特别清晰，所有没联想过的东西，竟然在这个时候，慢慢浮现。

很多美好的词句，都能够，巧妙地配合。

今天，终于迈入了真正的考验。Electronics Materials。

但是，考了后，也松了口气。

有一种感觉，就好象，在异度空间里，遇上了一个朋友。似曾相识，一见如故。

她对你笑了笑，然后，你就倍感放松，缓慢但又平稳地完成了那张考卷.

走去那熟悉的图书馆，又闻到那恐怖的安静。但是，今天，比较轻松，或许是之前遇见了熟友吧。

我坐在电脑面前，思索了一下。

我活在当下，却怀念从前。一个游走在回忆与现实边缘的灵魂，漂浮着那一丝丝的不确定。

我安静。闭上眼睛，偷睡了一下。

晨曦

总觉得，呆在同一个地方很久，好象会把自己的脑袋烧坏。

有种说不出的怪感，就是不想再呆在这里了。

同一个地点，看着外边的天空，从白天变到黑夜，再从黑夜变回白天。

又或者，更不可思议的是，当朋友告诉我，今天的天气不错。我竟然也不太知道。

白昼黑夜，对我而言，似乎已经没有太多的分别。

难得今早，独自去了Senior Common Room里吃早餐。特地选了个靠近窗口的座位，然后看着那四方形的建筑物。

一个灵魂的枷锁，像监狱困着你我。我看着，也有种无法形容的感触。

无数的夜晚，都在里面渡过。更难以理解的是，是我驱使我自己走进去的。

当我走出去时，我对着天空，许下了一个愿。

但愿它会实现。

晚间的思绪

最近，下起笔来，总是不顺心。

真是，下笔难成章，觉得有点儿逃避主义的感觉。越是靠近考试，越是难接受那到来的事实。

你想，总是不够时间，总是太多的东西，总是有做不完的习题。

有时候，人生可以很搞笑。

我在等了414许久后，终于现身了。

我摇摇手，叫它停下来。那司机似乎看不到，但毕竟是巴士亭，他也放慢下来。等我拿好书包后，他头也不回，就这样走了。

留下我，张大嘴巴，瞪着那远去了的巴士。

唯有在等N74了，因为那辆414是最后一趟。想想，又要从Marble Arch走回去Wilson House了。=.=

突然想起这句话；
"外国月亮特别圆".

其实，也不见得。只是，当你站在马来西亚时，所以为的。

我想说的是，外国月亮并不特别圆，但它是比较亮。住在英国不到一年，她点亮我的双眼，也点亮了我的双手。

这分感触，是当我看见我的groupmate,一位Slovakia的朋友,所体会到的。当我们在做电路时，他告诉我在高中时，他做过很多，甚至，有人教过他如何设计电路。

而当我回想时，我除了在 Form 3的Kemahiran Hidup里做过少少的soldering,form4 和 form 5也没有什么机会去接触了。

如没记错，高中时，我是读了很多Eksplorasi,Sukses,Sasbadi等书籍而已。

有人说，学习之前，要先掏空自己。

我终于明白了。

P/S: 总结一下，国家羽球队又再次，没让我们失望。因为，我们都知道，结局是如何。
（纵然如此，还是支持国家队的拿督李综伟！）

Of Reflecting and Rethinking

I came across this article and would like to share with you guys.

The Disadvantages of an Elite Education

(For those who are interested, you can read it. It is a thought-provoking one though it's quite long. )

For those who are not interested, I will just summarise the main points over here.

1. It makes you incapable of talking to people who aren’t like you.

2. An elite education inculcates a false sense of self-worth.

3. You learn to think of yourself in terms of those numbers. They come to signify not only your fate, but your identity; not only your identity, but your value.

4. The idea of not being successful terrifies them, disorients them, defeats them. They’ve been driven their whole lives by a fear of failure.

5. The system forgot to teach them, along the way to the prestige admissions and the lucrative jobs, that the most important achievements can’t be measured by a letter or a number or a name. It forgot that the true purpose of education is to make minds, not careers.

6. Elite schools speak of training leaders, not thinkers—holders of power, not its critics.

7. Thirty-two flavors, all of them vanilla. The most elite schools have become places of a narrow and suffocating normalcy.

8. What happens when busyness and sociability leave no room for solitude?

9. Now that students are in constant electronic contact, they never have trouble finding each other. But it’s not as if their compulsive sociability is enabling them to develop deep friendships.

How do we make use of our tertiary education? Very often we have forgotten why we are here, and when you look back at what you have written on your personal statement or application essays, you will wonder,

"Have I really written this?" O_O

*Reflect and rethink of the true purpose that have made you travel so far to UK.*

图书馆的遐想

曾经认为，待在图书馆的人，都是鱼缸里的小鱼仔。

要游远些，也不能游。最多也是整天对着电脑，在隐形的网里面度日如年。

思绪无限，有限的是肢体上的行动。幻想也变得特别多，譬如：
考完试后，我要怎样怎样。。；
如果我有超能力，我要改变。。。；
倘若考试能够延迟。。

殊不知，小学的完成故事作文题目，一个个浮现出来，嘲笑着你那无奈的表情。

你想，其实，也只不过是想逃避一下现实生活的压力。

被榨汁机(blender)榨到一点精力都没有, 应该是时候，安静下来，闭上眼睛，聆听一下，内心的呼唤。

咖啡与写作

我喜欢咖啡。

总是期望有一天，能够开一间小型的咖啡馆，和自己心爱的人，一起经营。有着黑褐色的地板，以给人一种脚踏实地的感觉；然后在靠近阳台处，摆设一些鲜花，让温和的阳光照射着那杯咖啡。同时,播放着７－８０年代的英语爵士歌曲，成为一个心灵的休息站。

咖啡，给人一种沉醉的感觉，而陷入无尽的幻想。

也就因此，考试时期，我都尽量避免去喝咖啡。美好的幻想，总是无法和残酷的现实并存的。

深夜时分，独自呆在图书馆里，听着周蕙的歌曲。一种悲哀的享受。

当宁静的思绪，碰上压力时，就只好歇一歇，写写部落格。

现在回想起来，原来我是在面对压力时候，爱上写作的。