17 September 2012

Pictures

You touch the wall, walking down the small lane, thinking of the pictures in your heart.

The finger tips, ignited the flame of thoughts, as they glide through the surface.

A picture that is vivid, yet vague enough; clear but murky, stirring up bits and pieces.

Standing away, running away, not sure what should the body do and it falls. 

Falling hard, into a cosy dreamland; flying like a feather, defying gravity.

Newton was laughing at your stupidity, Einstein said you are flying in the speed of light.

Cuz the picture in the heart is travelling in time

Sinking in the ebbs of memories, 

Writing down the lyrics of an unknown feeling, under the traffic light, at the crossroad. 

-luminodreamer-

15 September 2012

Audition for Life

So, one day, everyone in the town was very excited. Something big was going on.

There was an audition. No requirement, just a desire to win. The prize is a huge amount of money.

Many people went for the audition and went back empty-handed. None of them passed through.

Some of them began to speculate, this was a scam. It was only held for the elites. But, this young kid did not think so.  He decided that he would like to go for a try.

Many, including his parents told him it would be a waste of time. Still, he wanted to try.

He went for the audition, and he won.

Many people asked him how.

"This is how, " he continued,

"The old lady asked me one question. 'Tell me a story of your life'. "

"I do not have one. But I always believe in having many small stories instead. The past that you wanted to hide so much. The future you want to achieve so much, and the present that you want to keep, and escape so much. "

"I don't know whether I have one, but I think I have. Mine is pretty ordinary I guess, and not that big to tell, but it's big enough to tell my parents and my grandchildren."

The old lady cried, and gave him the money.

*inspired by America's Got Talent*

12 September 2012

梦想和事业的对话-不放弃,不退缩。

今天天气比较晴朗,所以梦想和事业都约一约,打算出来咖啡店谈谈天。

梦想:yo! 事业,好久不见,近来无恙吧!

事业:唉,别谈了。老板给压力,累都累垮了。

梦想:那是当然的啦。你不是一早都知道了吗?

事业:知道又怎样。难道你知道驾车会用车油,很贵,你就不驾车,不抱怨吗?

梦想:那倒是。让我告诉你一些事吧。

事业:什么事?我很忙,很累。简短一些,用“三个重点”的方式告诉我。

梦想:你以前不是这样啊?人生的故事和历程,如何用三个重点的方式告诉你呢?

事业:什么事都可以简单都说出来的啊。没那么长吧?

梦想:人生的故事和点滴,重要的是那个过程。就好像你小时候,你听太空人上太空的故事。或者汪洋中的一条船里的主角,又或者我国的科技人,潘建成 (KS PUA)苦中奋斗的故事。若把它们简扼地告诉你,哪有乐趣呢?

事业:我没那么多时间。哪像你,还在读书,有的是时间,精力。做了工,不像读书,开始后,就没有结束。像个吸取所有光的宇宙黑洞。

梦想:我可能不太明白。但是,我能说的是,一天里,好好地发个好梦,也算不错啊。看看朋友的近况,听听一些舒服的歌曲。压力是有,但是不能忘记编制自己的故事。

事业:什么故事?每天都那么累。

梦想:自己的故事。做你喜欢做的事,就是一个故事了。故事不需要复杂,不需要很大。

事业:每天都过着普通的生活,哪有故事?

梦想:故事,只需要真诚和耐心。说的人真诚,听的人有耐心, 就可以了。

事业:哪有那么简单呢?

梦想:想想吧。可能你开车时,听到的音乐;或者和朋友聚餐,谈到的话题;或者做工面对的难题,都可以是自己的故事。没有人可以质疑你的故事,或者决定它有多精彩。因为那是你自己最宝贵的经历。

事业:单纯。。。。

梦想:很多时候,我们忘了,笑对人生,单纯的心,很可能像个笨蛋,但是却是最难能可贵的心态。

事业:如果雨后,没有彩虹,那岂不是很失望。

梦想:雨后有没有彩虹,不是看天,是看你自己的。

事业:哦??

梦想:如果你心中没有热情,没有太阳,那雨后,又如何有彩虹呢?

事业若有所思,静下心来,开始慢慢咀嚼五味人生里的道理。

01 September 2012

The Rainbow

Never thought of how fast 10 weeks could just pass like this. This is sorta like a relativity concept in between the actual time that has passed and the amount of time you thought it would take.

Yea, so the end. The end of the summer internship. On an eventful day back in Malaysia, a historical milestone for the country and for my own life journey.

Looking back, in hindsight, the journey has been a bitter-sweet and meaningful one. It was pretty tough at first. The environment was pretty uptight. Still vividly remember on the very first day of the orientation, I got told off because I went to the toilet and was 'late' to come in. (because the EMEA Chairman has got into the boardroom before me)

Plus, with all the business and programming training and developments during the first week, I was thinking that how am I going to get through these 10 weeks, given the limited knowledge and experience I had on the asset management industry and programming.

Besides, as interns, we were given a task to form a group of 7/8 people to participate in the Portfolio Management Challenge. Given a virtual fund size of GBP 1mil, we had to come up with an investment strategy to outperform an actual benchmark within this 10 weeks.

Back then, I wasn't even sure that equities = shares, and what index weightings and P/E ratio are.

Well, the rest is history, they said.

The sweetest victory is to turn a doubtful and scary beginning, to a high-octane climax, and to a thumbs-up ending. When you managed to present the fund in front of so many MDs, you know that the late night studies on equities research are definitely worthwhile.

The 10-week would have been more challenging and tougher if there weren't these bunch of interns who continuously cheering you up, and the guidance provided  by my line manage, mentor and buddy.

Not to forget my buddy's colleagues. I still remembered that night, on the 3rd of July, when one of them left his work on the desk and taught me about alpha, beta and the concept of outperformance, while he was actually rushing his task to send over to the US people. This was because the 4th of July is the Independence Day in US.  (Oh and the CFA notes as well!)

My buddy has been a great teacher. He taught me how we should really focus on the important things in life, to make career decisions. He didn't take up a very lucrative job in an investment bank in the States, but would rather come over to Europe to have a family with his current wife. He recalled his experience back in 2007/8, when Lehman Brothers collapsed, he was overlooking the building from the other side of the street. He saw the throngs of people rushing over to the bank to get their savings. At that moment, he knew that money is not everything. It can come and go anytime, and it's not really within your control.

"Money can only give you that much, what is more important is what can you do with the money?".

And to my line manager, if possible I would really like to give him a toast, over a pint of Becks, or maybe two. The cool lad who does kite-surfing and chess. Without his patience and trust, I wouldn't be able to study so many software development concepts in the team project, and completed a graphical user interface. He admired the efforts I put in and allowed me to put my own signature on that small chunks of codes. It'll be launched globally in San Francisco, London and Tokyo in weeks to come, when everything is ready to get into production.

There are two things that move me to tears. Firstly, when your team member actually sends you a private message to send his gratitude, an acknowledgement of the efforts that you have put in for the portfolio challenge, while what you have done is nothing greater than just 'keep trying and keep going'; and the second one is the review by your line manager.

"It's great to have you here, Peter".

It has been a great 10-week. It really is. I couldn't ask for more.