点评：大马羽球与汤杯

今年的汤杯，经过十年后，再次由马来西亚举办，并且会在五月９日－１６日于本国布特拉室内体育馆，展开争夺汤杯的一轮厮杀。

这一次，显然的，我国想利用主场优势，以重温92年勇夺汤杯的光辉岁月。

可是，随着国家羽球队的名单出来后，可以看出，其实，我国想要重夺汤杯的梦想，恐怕又是仅仅一场美梦。

无须任何的猜测，首号男单，必定是由李宗伟来挑大梁。凭着他在最近的全英赛里勇夺冠军，应该也为整个队伍注射了信心与期望。

但，别忘了，很多时候，像汤杯如此的比赛，除了实力的比试，心理战略也是非常重要的一环。

很明显的，李宗伟要承受异常大的压力。第二和第三男单的阵容，也和两年前的一模一样。

在多几年下去，倘若再没有提拔新人，我国就只会剩下老年残兵，去参加比赛，也顶多是"陪太子读书"而已。

最后，当然还是要祝福本国羽球队，好让他们凯旋归来！

Student Movement

I attended PAN yesterday.

I listened to some of the speeches. Inspiring for some, some are boring.

We discussed about student movement, about changing the situation in Malaysia, about empowering the youth.

We discussed about the aims of organizing PAN. We talked about legacy, tradition, and history.

It's always by tracing the past, you will only know what you are doing in the present and what you are going to do in the future.

Power of student movement. I have almost forgotten that it used to be my drive and motivation.

I remembered when I started writing in Sinchew and Malaysiakini.

I remembered when I started admiring 凌国文 and 郑丁贤 writing styles.

I used to dream that by coming over to UK to study, I can do something I cant do in Malaysia due to some restrictions eg: University and University Colleges Act. But, as time goes by, I lose my track.

And now suddenly I recalled , I used to believe in the talk by this Professor of Tsinghwa University in China- Long Ying Tai (龙应台).

【Of 21st Century-Facing Global Challenges- How should university students prepare themselves?】.

-By having critical thinking. Think independently and manage to discern the true from the false and to be able to understand the facts and the fictions.

-By acquiring knowledge. Tear down the ignorant walls and interact more. Expand your horizon.

-By doing something. Action speaks louder than words. Do something substantial and practical towards a cause.

-By holding high integrity. Without a clean personality, we cant do anything to change the situation.

与自己的对话

残缺的梦，正等待着那一片拼图，凑成一幅心中伊甸园。不知浑噩了多久，也忘记昏睡了多久，总是习惯了那独行侠的角色。

躲在角落里，看着世界转动，很想参与其中，却同时也想置身事外。两种矛盾，两种思绪，两种心情，冲击着内心，激发起阵阵涟漪。

当年少轻狂，不再是食堂里一起吃便当的朋友；当青春时光，不再是草场上一起踢足球的玩伴；当懵懵懂懂，不再是作弄班上老师的借口时；

一切一切，就像酣睡里的sweet dreams ，被时间没收起来，藏在哆啦A梦的八宝袋里。

当你醒来时，你看见的是，竞争；当你走着时，你看见的是未来，而不是现在；当你见面说笑时，像个变色龙；当你无法理解你自己时；

你就知道，不能再问社会能够给你什么了，而是如何使自己更为倔强，更为坚定的原则，来面对社会。

默默地涂上一层防锈漆，并不是为了使自己的表面更鲜艳，而是为了遮盖那害怕会生锈的不安。

得到全世界，却输掉最重要的一部分，你说值得吗？

如果人家问你，最想成为什么？

我会说，“是巧克力。”

巧克力，固体状时，给人力量，甜入心里；溶解了后，也能变成可口的 Hot Chocolate。

可以是高贵的GODIVA，也可以是平凡的KIT-KAT。

当你渴望站在一个平衡点上，你就知道，你已经没有小孩的权利了。

笑一笑：政治版

http://lengkekmun.blogspot.com/2010/04/cool.html

看看我国的领袖，每天所发表的言论。有时候，看了都不知道该大声仰天而笑；抑或是，低头苦笑。

随笔

Today, I attended an event in UCL Robert's Buidling. First, I didnt know who sent me an email about this event, and secondly, when I got there, only I found out that it was an event catered for Malaysian postgrads. =/

Basically, the papers presentations were too boring and dry..and i didnt know anything as those topics discussed were very specific and in depth.

But some sessions are indeed interesting.

"Networking is a 'dirty' word. It is associated with extreme capitalism and it's truly embarrasing back in my time, when I was a student"- Prof. Michael Worton, UCL Vise Provost.

For me, I would say, networking has never been 'cleaner' even until today. It has always been associated with political and realistic purposes, and positions a person at a dilemma state where he/she doesnt even know whether it's right to step in or out at the midst of this confusion.

很多东西当我们站在外面时, 蛮难去了解当事人的. 因为，当局者未必会迷，局外人也不一定会清.
很多时候，都是踩了进去，又退出来一下，反省下，到底该不该这么做。当中的挣扎，也只能够吞进去心里。

有些说，这是难得的学习经验。有些则说，这是培育现实人格的温床。

我只能说，并不是要高攀权贵，而变得现实；只不过是学习面对社会的残酷后，寻找一个平衡点。

些许感触

某天，当有人听到我在UKEC 时，胆敢问我一句，：“那是什么？回大马工作？有谁要回呢？ Malaysia is a piece of shit.”

我听后，觉得有点儿悲哀。

虽然我们整天都在埋怨政府，没效率，天秤重来都不能够平衡， 但是，恳请读者们，问问自己，若你的家里有什么问题，你会告诉别人，说你的家是堆粪吗？

眼看五月份的汤姆斯杯会在大马举行，从92年高举汤杯到现在，整整18年了。当我们的球员输了，我们会咒骂，我们会提下三字经，可是，明年的比赛，我们依旧支持我国的球员。我们绝不会说，“臭LCW，赶快输给林丹，打包袱回家吧！”

这是一种对自己身份的认知。若连这份认知都没有，那是教育的失败。

不知怎么的

不知怎么的，发觉近期内，所写的的文章，都描写自己成一种动物。

糟了，难道来到IC过后，自己变成了一个躲藏在人体内的禽兽？

我第一次写的文章，把自己写成，埋在书堆中的井底蛙，忘记了原来世界并不止是EEE部门那么大。

第二次，把自己写成蚯蚓。一个也是以为世界只在图书馆内周转的思维。

第三次，也就是现在，又看到了自己像只蛇。

蛇，在成长的过程中，会经历蜕皮这阶段。这是最痛苦，最难熬的时段。但是，一旦渡过了这阶段，它又再次拥有新的视野，新的心得。

若非昨日出席了一场演讲，我也几乎忘记了，当初的激情和梦想。

当一个人很累的时候，真的很想双手放开，躺在Hyde Park上的草地上。

那种累，是心灵上的疲倦。

可是，经昨天的讲座的提醒，发现原来，现在自己正经历蜕皮这阶段。

很多时候，要警惕自己，“严以律己，宽以待人。”若自己不为自己打算，谁会为你打算？

希望蜕皮过后，能变回一个人吧~！lol

佳文分享

一篇蛮不错的文章。愿奋斗中的自己和朋友一起加油 =）


http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/150892?tid=3

Untitled #2

No title will be given, as the content will be a summary of my random thoughts.

-Is reaching to the stars, far more better than lying on the ground and observing them at night?

I have been dreaming to study in London since secondary school. There are many unexpected roadblocks, detours, or even obstacles in the middle of the pathway in achieving that dream.

And now, here I am.

I know where did I come from. I know how did I make it. But, where should I go from here? How should I go from here?

People always say, persistent will bring you to your goal. However, when you hold on a cup of water for a very long time, your hand will feel tired and pain.

When persistent is just a word to keep the motivation going, you know it's time to rest.

Being on the peak of the hill is fulfilling, yet it's a lonely path to get up there.

To quote a friend's facebook status. "If you want to go high, go alone; if u want to go far, go with many people."

Simplicity is actually not simple at all.

Any minutes spent to plan for the future, is any minutes lost for embracing the present.

蚯蚓

是时候用华文来书写了。 这也是为了避免倾向于只用单一语文来抒发情绪。

最近，书写像患上了便秘。

要写写不出，但是又有股气想写。那种一气呵成，把心中所想都抛出来的妄想。或许，夸张一点来说，几乎到了江郎才尽，文思枯竭的边缘。

想回来，也许是长时间接触理科的关系吧。理科的词汇深奥难懂，搞懂了也纯粹是为了考试而懂。
不但如此，而且还枯燥生硬，用来书写，未读就先睡了。

所以，某些时候，觉得自己有点儿像只蚯蚓。

它只会一味的往地底钻，越钻越深，殊不知，却忘了，地上的生活，才是多姿多彩的，才是瞬息万变的。

抒情文，写起来却像写议论文。真可悲！ 呵呵 =）